Being..

Strange, or maybe not so strange, that the first spurts of fresh new life is kind of in pastel colors, and with vigor comes those bright almost intense (crisp) colors. Blending gives it a softer, warmer feel and somehow makes it fuller. Guess this is not just about colors but also a metaphor to life.

Guess having a delicate, fragile, vulnerable side with a daring, ready to jump out of skin, energy is not really having a split personality but just the two sides of the same coin - holding each other in balance and hence one.

I wanna capture..

Wanna get a grip on the intangible, amorphous, the things that comes into being within the speed of lightening. To capture (freeze?) the things that the mind sees in the flash of an insight. Words are too slow and few to 'bracket' all of them in definitions.

Learning..

I suppose learning happens more when whatever one comes across is absorbed (whatever the 'container' of body/mind can hold..and in whatever quality it is prepared/ready to hold) than when tried to understand something as 'out there' as perhaps a concept. When the truth can be located within oneself, then no matter how trivial the learning, it stays, since it is then owned, though maybe not really 'understood.'

Life showing up..curious kinds..

Interesting things happening of late in my spaces. Strange differenty alive people showing up. Were they always there? Hadnt i noticed them? or hadnt i noticed that people already are differently alive? Hadnt i noticed that i am differently alive within? Hadnt that been ok before which now it perhaps is..and my spaces reinforcing that okayness, thereby allowing me to see what i hadnt seen before? Interpretations!!

Linked..

Feel like I am a part of a chain that has been there since time immemorial... along chain of timeless values, some kind of tradition, something binding yet liberating all at once, and perhaps hence well supported though not in any tangible way yet more strongly than if it had been. Oh wait, not there yet, pretty close, the current is heard, sensed even, but not there yet...

Tazer effect??

Feel like a spring that is not a shock absorber and refuses to take the shock!

Evolution

Maybe evolution is, by addition or deletion, something being better than it was a moment before. It has nothing to do with the dualities of right/wrong, good/bad, beautiful/ugly - all of them merely being perceptions. I could be crueler now than I was a moment before and have evolved in that sense. It must be the discipline of thought that makes evolution visible/significant....and perhaps just about always in hindsight.