Been a looong time since I posted anything here. Been jotting down things off and on though, so putting them all up at once.. random thoughts in a not so orderly sequence.
Great to be a nobody!
Cigarette, alcohol, dope.... means to get away from the noise in the head and traffic of thoughts that the 'busy', activity-prone city invites people to be a part of...in the rush to be somebody?
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dont share, dont speak, dont ask....they must be the cruelest things you could say to a person...a sure slow poison.
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An intuitive repulsion to unwholesomeness, like the Form traits are not complete with the information immediately available. incomplete w.r.t. the Form being sought? perhaps.
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when an inquiry gets underway, everything seems to be a manifestation of the same with an inherent unity in everything, like the vibgyor in white light with light itself being the unifier.
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It may come to be that the eternal student is the one performing at the optimal level, balancing energies just enough to respect the unknown and utilizing what is known for progress, with his/her placement just below the threshhold of arrogance that comes from 'i know' that obliterates any space that allows for 'i dont know.'
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3-Jan-2012
A wondering observation today. Reading the one-straw revolution. The first time i opened the e-book, i went straight to the first chapter after a brief glance at the author's biography per se. Come this time, i read from the first letter in the first page including the publisher, literally everything. Just a note.
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Amusing to think that dad asked 'under which tree have you been sitting?' Dint understand at the time what he meant. it may have been sarcasm but i guess he was referring to my way of speech. Life quite hasnt been the same since i decided to leave my past behind and get into active experiementation, to stand by what i have speculated and determined to be true, even though with an askance for confirmation, perhaps in real life or as the rules by which things operate or in confirmation in others ways of thought in their speech. A kinda devil may care or not, i care attitude. Life has certainly not been the same since when i care.
We say 'we' when it is 'I,' 'I' being taken for granted as always being there in the 'we.'
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Fukuoka talks of the same 'demand and supply' environment in farming as is for our everyday needs per se. We easily mix up want with need so much so that we dont really differentiate the two. Eat when not hungry. Eat just because it is time to eat, so also for sleep. We 'need' tea and coffee, for some others a cigarette, or cellphone or some such thing which we introduced into our lives to facilitate something and in time come to depend upon it, coming to the point of taking it for granted for it being always there. The impact of dependence becomes known only in its absence. Like some relationships. Links and networks in the Form T are not limited to living or nonliving. It is just a Form linked to another Form, and evolved into a network.
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5-Jan-2012
Everyone is a visual representation of some aspect of me, either known or yet to be unknown at some point in time.
Feel like im getting BIG, unshrinking and unfolding with what is getting discerned in a speculative inquiry. so little do i know and yet the little that i see is amazing enough. Feels like at some level im fragmenting, like the bark of a tree fissuring out to allow space for whatever is expanding within. Does it leave stretch marks? Notable, that with the fragmenting, sponging is also happening. Not like tentacles but definitely the absorbtion capacity for information by nameless senses seem increased, like charcoal perhaps that absorbs CO2 faster with increased surface area. Strange but very interesting feeling this.
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6-Jan-2012
Volcanoing of values from the very depths of undifferentiated understanding, making their presence known from amongst the noisy confusion of information bombarding the senses and unthinkingly, undistinguished stored in memory in whatever form that the brain could understand. The cycle of disorder and order is now more evident. Renaissance of culture and thinking. Restructuring, fragmenting of the 'known' making way for exploring the unknown from experiencing that the known does not work anymore. Renaissance speeding up.
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Vocalizing distorting perceptions. Restraint until the most apt word is identified taking a long time to communicate...but communicates most aptly the intention of speaking. perhaps patience with the learning process and perseverence of inquiry would in time speed up the identification of apt words and perhaps also distinguish the very words that another can understand regardless of the listeners background and level of exposure.
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Presencing what is missing invites thinking. Answers close the inquiry.
...............this post has assorted thought lines, assorted spaces through which I have moved, but somehow when in a pensive mood I re-read a few of them, other thoughts mushroom as I revisit some of these random ones. A case of re-triggered memory continuing from where it left off perhaps. Makes saving up those jotted speculations and posting here at convenience worth it.
